Sinan Writes This

The Stasis of Still Having Electricity

I’d written off today as I didn’t have any work, and the builders doing refurb on our flat said they were going to turn off the electricity at 9am. I was all set to go into London and paint the town a shade of red. Probably a light red, it is a Wednesday after all.

It’s now 11am and we still have power. I have completely wasted the last 2 hours waiting for the power to go off. I should be angry at the builders for saying they’d do something and then not doing it, but that would be like getting mad at a dog for licking its balls. Really, I’m angry at myself. Even as I type this out, I’m thinking that I should just get off my ass and go into Central before the rarity of a free day drips away. Instead, I’m telling myself that maybe the power will stay on, and then I can work on that review I need to finish or that blog post I’ve been thinking about. 

I am terrible at allowing myself time off. That may sound like I’m bigging myself up for being so dedicated to my work, but it’s a definite fault. I get too focused on games, I forget to explore other mediums, and often my best inspiration for an article, a post, or even a review comes from my experiences outside of gaming. The problem comes from enjoying work. I really love to play games. Even for review, even when I’d rather be playing something else. Even when it’s a bad game, I enjoy framing ideas around how to talk about it. I think, actually, the problem is that I really love writing too. 

The electricity is still on. 

So really, electricity or no, I need to get out of this house, take my Tim Moore book, find a nice cafe, a mocha frappucino, and just enjoy myself without a controller in my hand. Just for today. Let’s see how that goes. 

Also, fuck the builders. I mean really.